i cant count the number of times I've tried to quit. I don't know if T knew the times when I was really serious or half-serious. A couple times she gave my appointments away or called me to convince me otherwise. For the most part, she would say a few words that equated to "stay," and I would listen to her. She did say that early on she thought I would quit at any point. Shes told me that at times she thought when we had ruptures that I would leave and never come back, but now she doesn't think our relationship is fragile and we could get through anything. Sigh.

It's good that your T understands you, CantExplain.