When I am highly stressed, I feel unfocused, somewhat helpless, confused, not able to concentrate beyond the problem at hand...and the problem at hand is something that takes me forever to figure out how to deal with it.
I've spent a whole night trying to focus on writing a letter to address a concern of personal need. I've done this more than once. I feel pushed to succeed with the task at hand, and yet it is taking such a huge effort.

When I get like this, I do feel almost infantile, like a frightened little girl who has no one to sooth her. I've written of this once before, and someone mentioned my inner child and I can buy that, even though I not sure what to do about it.

I am a rather proud woman, and feeling helpless/infantile is something that I really hate to feel. Usually I feel some in control of my life, so I'm disappointed in myself when I feel weak. Yes I have lots of hurts from my past life, but I have worked through much of this.

The problem/stress right now I'm dealing with has a lot of my future riding on it. If it fails, I will be completely lost financially for any future hope.
So, my question is..is this anxiety, what is the childlike feelings, and is there anything I can do to combat going into days of what I feel is
a weakened state of being? I hope this makes sense to someone.

bj