Thanks guys for making me smile. Suggesting, a male apply for female emergency housing because on pc we can't tell who is what. That's freaking hilarious. But , Sandworm, your, situation isn't funny. May angels surround you and help you find shelter and comfort and healing. I dont think your abuser has to apologize or make ammends for healing. Abusers are all messed up and 99.9 % never will. The 12 steps maybe need to be revised for survivors. My main abuser is psychotic and still trying to kill people. I dont even know where the others are. I dont know 12 steps though. I am a cutter but that's my addiction. Maybe you just need a closure ritual - some way to find closure and let go since abuser facilitate that, you or a T needs to help do that (create closure is what i mean).