Hello TPND--I'm so glad to see your update. I was exhausted from just reading about your schedule! You said one of the reasons you keep busy is so that you don't have to deal with all your woes. I can totally understand that...it's so very painful to go through one's traumatic memories....but that is the only way to heal. Yes, psychodrama might not be right for you but I really hope you will consider talk therapy. I think if you could just find the right therapist, you would probably want to find more time for sessions. Could one of your barriers be how to find the right T? Many will do free phone consultations to see if you all are compatible, in fact I had my grief therapy with one T all by phone. I know they are busy too and it is hard to get appointments when you want them but at least give it a try? maybe modern technology could help...skype maybe?

It seems you have started to take steps to take care of yourself by signing up for the graze boxes. What motivated you to do that?