If you take your life then it is a possibility that your children and anyone of the other people who would learn of it might consider it as an option.Life can be so hard to get through,I know,believe me.But,it seems like life also has periods of getting better.Sometimes it makes me feel good to get busy with things that distract me from focusing on myself.Art,comedy,taking walks,visiting people who are lonely,tidying my environment.Finding things that you can do to spend time with your kids may be enjoyable too.I feel better if I have showered early in the morning,and started my day with enjoying outdoors,or comedy.Somehow it helps me personally.It is so much easier to lay in bed with the sadness,and skip showers and meals,and not leave the house,I know,but,it really makes it worse.I find that life fluctuates...bad to good...I try to remind myself to look for the good,and try to surf the bad,distracting myself while it's bad.I hope you feel better.