So sorry a shoe lace was the straw that broke the camel's back. I know how you feel. I, at the moment, am pissed because I am feeling bad and the world goes on as if it does not matter. There are even birds singing outside, as if it is a great day or something!

Do the birds have no clue that I am in the depths of depression? Do they have no concept of how terrible the world is? or society? Uh, that would be a "No."

I wish I was a bird, or could be more like them, even if it meant not being able to perceive the reality. Well, maybe not. I dunno. It is too complicated to think about now.

In terms of your husband, I am not a good person to ask. I think that most men are pigs, so I could not be fair to him with my bias.

All I can say is hang in there. Sometimes I hang by a thread, but we all need to not give up. It is the only chance we have to relieve some of the pain.