I soooo want to say no and set boundaries but I find it soooo hard almost as if saying no to someone who needs help makes me a terrible person. I even feel guilty saying No to pushy telemarketers/salespeople. I do feel like I want to make everyone happy all the time. The problem is I end up instantly getting mad at myself for sayin Yes and feeling stupid and cowardly for it. That of course carries on the entire time I am helping and I hate myself for that.
I know that I am a good person, deep down, in that I will help anyone with anything at any time, the thing is that I seem to do it for all the wrong people, for people that Will end up abusing it. Why, I don't know. My T is really great but I don't think he knows how deep this fear really goes. The fear of disappointing people, even practical strangers terrifies me. Even on here I am so afraid to say the wrong thing I edit everything jic it upsets someone or causes anyone any inconvenience. I really hate that part of being me. I hate that I am on here whinging about this when there are so many others with much bigger issues but I just can't handle it anymore, I have become afraid to answer my own phone, for fear that I end up saying Yes to something I don't want to.

Thanks guys.
Nams