Hi!

I don't know about your parents, your friends or your gay men, but something is wrong with your therapists! They should not change the subject.

It is possible, of course, that they think you are changing the subject, and whenever they are getting close to something interesting you bring up the gay men.

But if your therapist won't talk about it, you need to find someone who will.

Following up Hankster's idea: Maybe you find it safer to pursue gay men because you know they are not going to pursue you. That way, you are always in control. You might not get the sex you want, but you'll always be safe from sex you don't want. That might be more important to you.

Maybe your T wants to explore "safety" and "pursuit", and you perceive that as "changing the subject"?