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Feb 19, 2012, 03:01 PM
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Member Since: May 2008
Location: Alabama, USA
Posts: 1,309
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Terry, your reply made me laugh, the part about you being exhausted just reading my schedule. I know... I make myself too busy for my own good! 
I think yes, one of my barriers is finding the right T. When I lived in Somerset I had the right T, but it's a matter of finding the right one now and finding one that would be close enough to my work place to allow me to go there before or after work. I've never actually tried a phone consultation, that sounds like a really good idea. But then again it's having the time out to be able to do it because if I do it on my lunch break, everyone at work will hear my conversation and usually I start really early or finish too late or I'm working the same hours as most Ts do!
The thing that motivated me to get the Graze box was that a friend who is also a model had got one and advertised it on her page. She's a very well established, full time model so I thought her doing that means it would probably be a good idea for me. So far it's working well. I've done OK with food today, ok I missed breakfast but at least I had my Graze snack of oat biscuits with caramelised onion marmalade. It was yum. I'd like to be more healthy, have 3 meals and 2 snacks a day, do it all properly so the Graze box was a way of starting that.
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Your reply was so lovely! It made me feel warm and fuzzy. It made me feel like I'm wanted SOMEWHERE in the World, even if it's not a chosen place. The pretty part - I have a few pictures from shoots on my profile if you'd like to see what I look like - they're a little dated though.
You saying you're proud of me is just what I needed to hear, it's so helpful when people say that to me because I never feel like anyone's proud of me, I often feel like I'm letting people down. I like that you feel the World would be a dimmer place without me. I'd like to feel the same way about myself. The World would definitely be a very dull place without you - you're so kind.
We have a deal. I'm trying to find a T, promise.. It's just such hard work trying to find the right one  It's hard work dealing with depression alone, let everyone and everything else huh...
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