Moose (((( HUGS ))))

I feel bad your in this situation ,,, hasnt he been your "non -bf" for a while ? I would imagine all this back and forth is making matters only worse for you .. everyone has issues whether they are bipolar or not ...BUT ..... by what you say here I feel maybe he should just be your ex and you move on and get yourself more stable to where you can really put some thought into the relationship with him ... from what you have posted in the last few months hes more often than not your NON BF maybe cutting off contact with him for a while would help YOU feel better and not always in such turmoil over him ? gods knows you have enough on your plate right now and hes certainly not helping ..
just my opinion and I hope I havent overspoke about your situation..

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