I dont think i should show how deeply in pain I am anymore....I feel this is too messed up..I didnt think it was so bad ...that she thinks we should speak with the supervisor...

Shes experienced ......idk

...Im thinking of forgetting therapy..Im thinking that maybe Im just not supposed to remember all these things..maybeit was best when I pretended they werent there and Ijust tried to pretend everything was ok.....
everyday is feels like im somewhere else... it gets worse the more I say..
I panic more and get more frantic the more I think about what Ive told her...

I feel too screwed up for T...Like...im really going to lose it.

We didnt even talk about the really hard stuff..

She says she wants to help me...she says she believes in me..


I am sorry if you find this strange but I really did feel bad and want to apologize after reading quotes above. I just want to say sorry for some of my comments and opinions I replied to your earlier thread, “I’m losing it and I can’t tell anybody”. I can’t help feel bad for may be encouraging you to open up more and express things to your T you may have otherwise not have told your T. I am sorry if I did have an influence on you in not a good way.
The reason I suggested opening up is in the past I have hidden thoughts and feeling for one reason or another. However as much as I thought I could handle keeping these to myself it’s the reason I just end up in a cycle of behaviour over and over again. Have you hear the term people project their thoughts or feeling onto another person, I think this is what I done with my reply to your thread because I didn’t want you to make the same mistake I did with thinking you should keep certain things bottled up for a reason. Even if this is because you think it’s better for the people around you not to know although it makes you feel so miserable and bad inside. This is why I wanted to encourage you to open up because you shouldn’t feel bad inside because you keep things to yourself. You have the right to get past this and be at ease with yourself and file things away in your mind once they are not a problem for you. I would like to wish you all the best and I hope things will work out for you.