Hey all

So this past week I have read several books and posted them in the labels post. Anyway it has been since about June/July of 2010 since I SI. Thoughts yes but no follow through. Lately though the thoughts have increased and I am feeling urges. I know I am shut down from physical feelings as when I took something out of the oven today I actually partially grabbed the rack and didnt feel it till after the fact. It was not an intentional thing. I recently figured out that i am passively SI when I am eating foods I know I am allergic to. I am gluten/wheat intollerant and yet at times i cannot stop myself from eating them knowing that I will have a reaction. I am having so many rushes of all these mixed emotions and i am not sure how to release them.