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Feb 20, 2012, 02:05 AM
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Member Since: Feb 2012
Location: Virginia
Posts: 115
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I hope nobody finds this super disturbing but I have really bad stomach pain on top of Bipolar with pyschotic features, OCD and PTSD.
I just started lithium, 900 mg a day. That's all I'm on, was just recently diagnosed not too long ago with the bipolar. I've been seeing things/hearing voices for most of my life, so I don't know what's going on.
I used to cut myself, but I have these awful thoughts while my stomach really hurts that I want to get a knife and just, cut my stomach open and see what's causing it. I don't want to kill myself so I wouldn't do it, but it keeps crossing my mind.
Is that like, a schizophrenic type of thought? Is that normal with bipolar? I know that's not right, and it worries me that I think like that. n___n
I was told I could possibly have early schizophrenia. So idk.
My grandma and aunt have it, and my aunt almost ripped skin off her body because she felt like she was "dirty." It just sounds like what it is to me.
what's wrong with me? that's disgusting 
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