Ok I think I understand what you are telling me. I have to hash it all out with her so that she can know why I'm AvPD, if there is a why.... Getting it all out will be theraputic in itself bc she will be guiding me through the thoughts I have to let her in....
I gotcha.
It's just going to be so long before I can see her again. Waiting on insurance is really going to test me. In the meantime I'll just find comfort with you guys on here.

Thanks for being here Snap. I'm glad we can help each other...
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