Maybe this belongs in the depression section, but my depression is caused by my relationships with people. My boyfriend keeps telling me " youre starting to hate me" "were growing apart huh" "i dont deserve you" blah blah ********. I know it stems from his depression, but it makes me question what Im doing to make him think Im starting to love him less. It feels awful. Im in a bad mood, Im a *****. Im in a good mood, I get pushed away (jokingly for the most part). And he seems not to understand that,hey! i have feelings too and Im not happy more than 1% of the day. I recently found out my fathers lied to me the past six or so years the reason why we moved two states away a while ago. Apparently he was ditching state because he owed my gramma hundreds of dollars. **** talked her my whole life to influence me to feel the same, and for a long time it unfortunately worked. My mother is schizophrenic and attempted stabbing/strangling my half sister to death...went to jail all that. now i feel comfortable sending her mail again after years. My best friend since second grade is defending her girlfriend, that she loves oh so much but cant stand and used to complain to me like clockwork every day about her, and shes not even a lesbian, which i witnessed her say to her gf. and i told her i couldnt stand the gf because she got my friend into a perk addiction, as a result of their undying false love I was told never to speak to her again...Ive had a ****** life and Im just starting to realize how not normal it is and my relationships with those five people have done a complete 360, so im confused and very depressed. I just need someone to understandI guess.