i didn't call you all last week between appts, this time it's 1.5 between appts but i am going to try not to call you. i need to prove to myself? to you? that i am not dependant.

but things are going okay, but i have that feeling i get before things completely fall apart, soon things are going to get ugly, i just don't know how to tell you which is why i didn't say anything monday.