Hey dude
It's really up to you if you feel like you need treatment or not. Someone can't say to you that you NEED it- it's gota be something you yourself feel you need. Sounds a bit scary with all the palpitations and all. It kind of reminds me of myself a bit- because i sometimes don't care too much whether i physically suffer- it's all part of it really. It sounds like you have a really good motivating point to get well though- your kiddies!
I think you did really well expressing yourself.
PM me if you want- I can totally identify with a lot of what you are saying! Hugs goin your way!!
-Sezzie-