Rio,

You can do what you choose, you know the choice is yours. However you came here seeking advice, stating that you were not happy, that you hate being someones option, and the you are not getting what you need. So how would we / should we respond ? If you are happier than you have ever been or ever want to be, why are you here ?

You can think age isn't a factor all you want. When we are talking adults to youth tho, age is a factor indeed. I'm not going to pretend it isn't. You might be 18 now, but you were only 16 when this older man appeared in your life. A 16 year old is not an adult, no matter how much they have been through. Experience does not equal a fully developed adult brain, some important brain processes are not even fully developed until we are around 25.

Not everyone is abusive. Because people do not always respond the way we want does not equal abusive. Not everyone acts in their own best interest with disregard for others interests. Abuse is defined as any action that intentionally harms or injures another person. Do you really believe that everyone intentionally chooses to hurt others.

Empathy has limits on understanding something fully. Empathy only gives us the capacity to understand to an extent. I really don't think you can understand what real love is, or healthy relationships are based on empathy alone.

Telling him you love him if you don't? I'm confused, you said 100% that you do. Again, no, trying to get emotional needs met, from someone you love, umm not abuse. Using manipulation, and your mental issues to try to control him ? YES abuse. Do you want to be like this?

Open eyes is not using your age against you, she is using it for what it is. And it is young. It is what it is. Not a bad thing either. His using your age is very much different than what Open Eyes is doing. That's pretty obvious.

Some people strive for truth. Not everyone is dishonest, or omits truths. While of coarse everyone is going to stumble with this, there are people out there who truly strive to live to their truth. You seem to have a very negative view of life and people, if you think everyone is dishonest and abusive.

Anyways, only you can decide what is right or wrong for you. I just have a feeling you would not be here at all if you really felt right with this. The fact that you needed to ask if him liking you hurting yourself was normal, shows that you lack an understanding of what healthy loving behavior is, and that you yourself were not comfortable with that.

I could not in good conscience tell you that all this is ok, even if it is what you want to hear. Some others might be able to, but I cannot, given all that you have said.

I do wish you good luck with this and your life, I do truly hope that happiness is what you achieve in the end.