Paige,
That is such a difficult question to answer. I do not know if there is a point in my life when I am "good" per se. I have my really good days and I have my really bad days. Most of the time it is just a struggle to get out of bed in the morning. The only thing that keeps me going most of the time is that I know I have to go on. I guess I look at it this way, I have two choices in my life: One is to let my depression control me and god that would be easy and two is to fight it with everything I am and live the best life I can live.
It's a struggle everyday and there is no black and white. If someone asks me if I am glad that I did not suceed in killing myself I really can not answer them. Somedays when I am outside watching the sunset or watching my boyfriend laugh I am so glad that I am here.
Other days...well I just do not know
I hope this helps.

Stay strong,
Jessica