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The voices are telling me that i must die and apart of me agrees with them and another part of me don't
I am looking into starting an open uni course in may but i have never done anything like this before also it will be from home so i dont have to go out of the house to do the course and i can do it in my own time ( well with in reason )
The voices are saying that i cant do it that am useless and i am too thick for this kinda thing with i agree with them in away
I mean am not as bright as other people who are doing this course
i have no other qualifications apart from the stuff i did in school and that's about it
I have no self esteem as i always put myself down and give myself a hard time
The voices want me to die and i think i should i dont have a reason to be in this world i don't help anyone i just take and take from people
My husband is my carer and i make him do everything around the house because i either cant do it for myself or i don't have to motivation to do it.
Am so useless and am nothing
everyone would be better off if i was dead
I just feel so low right now and the voices arent helping things at all
Ella
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