I'm staying with my Mom and Dad while I'm having marital issues. My father was very very verbally and physically abusive to my Mom and I growing up so staying here is very difficult, as he is still very abusive.

Well, tonight I took my first dose of seroquel and he got up in my face and told me "If you weren't so effing lazy and got out of bed, nothing would be wrong with you. You're not bipolar - you're stupid. You chose to be mentally ill. You chose it. I'm so sick of you doing nothing, you disgust me. Go take your dope (my seroquel) and go the **** to bed."

My Mom heard and came and got in his face and said that she was taking herself and I to live with my grandparents. And now he's screaming and getting in her face, I feel like calling the police.

I'm having flash backs from my childhood abuse and when he would beat me with belts and stuff. I'm so terrified, I can't even leave my room to go to the bathroom. I'm paralyzed with fear. I HATE HIM SO MUCH.

I just have tears pouring down my face.

My husband is so unsupportive, he told me, well go to a hotel. I'm like, thanks. You're really great.

My Mom is trying to comfort me but I'm sick to my stomach. Maybe I am just crazy. Maybe I am worthless. Maybe I should just be dead and maybe I am disgusting.