Hey bb, I have felt this but not as consistently as it seems it is with you. The part about feeling like in a haze and disconnected happens to me several times a day though. I guess maybe because I am so used to it happening maybe I don't connect with that anymore or wonder what's going on, it's just going on. There are times that I am driving and I am so nervous about crashing and dying then there are times like "hey that'd be cool"...I don't want to die but at the same time if I am gone who cares. It's that ambivalent moment in our lives, it scares me most because everything else is so black and white...to float is scary.