This is really, really difficult. I really feel for you. I have problems with eating and a large stomach but not that degree. And where I live, I see people with large stomachs coupled up all the time. Go figure. Are you being regularly seen by your endocrinologist? Can you afford an RD who might work in pair with the endocrinologist? It seems that your diet has be meet so many constraints - not too much, not too little, etc. that you need professional help, maybe a professionally put together meal plan. Is it something you can afford? When you eat, do you cook for yourself or you buy store-bought meals? I very much feel for you, it is as if you were living in the darkness created by food.