Here it is 0230 and I'm still wide awake. I'm sitting here trying to think of a way to manipulate my husband into letting me buy a new car. Mania setting in. I don't need a new car..can't really afford one... but I just want one and have been obsessing over it for a few days. Got a ticket for wreckless driving yesterday..going 90 in a 45. I just couldn't help it. Now I don't even know if they'll let me keep my license but I just HAVE to have this new car. Good thing my name isn't on the bank account..I got my paycheck on friday and I've spent almost all of it. Mostly on toys and clothes for my grandson, clothes for my daughter and clothes for me. We didn't need any of it and I feel guilty but I still have this terrible urge to buy a new car.