hugs to you too x I am cool about being alone, it was my choice to break the links as they were detrimental to my well being! I have a few friends I see sometimes (not really close ones as i don't let people get close so i can protect myself from hurt) and do loads of voluntary stuff so I rarely feel lonely. I am very fortunate to live in the UK where we have a very good benefits system in place.. and although i do moan about them I have a really good care team.
have a go at making yourself a card, if you do not have access to a laminator you can use sticky back clear plastic , the stuff used for covering books or even just place it in a cut down plastic bag and tape the edges. if you get stuck PM me and I will help you