On top of the frequent "leave me alone" feeling, I know that I've been pulling back from close interactions, even with some of my closest friends and family. I worry about having episodes in front of them. I worry about their opinion of me changing. I worry about them not understanding the symptoms I'm trying to explain.

It can be quite isolating.

I'm trying to get better about this, talking to people whenever they ask how I'm doing, but it's still difficult.