I feel so angry at my dad right now. I have had a tough time in the job market and decided to apply to a very good grad program. The application has taken me forever, especially since I have been doing it while trying to lift myself out of depression and trying new meds at the same time. I know the program would really help my career. A while back I spoke with him (along with my therapist) and he said, "I would love to pay for school for you." I said, "Dad, are you sure? it's expensive, I can get loans, we should talk about it" and he actually became terse and said "DON"T worry about the money." So I haven't been. And I admit that has been a weight off of my shoulders. Today I speak to him on the phone and he's like, "How are you going to pay for this? The money is going to be a problem. Do you want to see what my bank account looks like?"
Argh. I just feel so frustrated with him. I mean, I know it's not cheap. But that's why I was planning on looking at loans. But he was like, "don't worry about it." Now he doesn't remember that. He has been like this my whole life - first on one end of the spectrum, then on the other. I never know what to expect. I feel so angry and frustrated. Why did I even believe him?