I don't think that suicide is always calculated and executed to an exact plan - I don't know if a completely rational mind can get to that place of deciding to, but I do know that a completely irrational, unwell mind can and at that point anything can make sense.

I am still intrigued by the meaning of the word selfish, but if it is taken to mean self centered and self absorbed, I think a decision to commit suicide can be argued to be the complete opposite. Thoughts such as "they would be better of without me", implies others needs are put before those of the person themself, even though these perceptions may be distorted and inaccurate.

I think what is significant is that in my experience, suicidal thoughts always pass eventually - they may return, but them they pass again.............