I have thought about suicide many times but always think about my kids, Would I ever go through with it? No..

Is it selfish?... Well I know myself when I have thought about suicide I get so depressed I don't think about those around me (accept my kids) I think that I won't be missed anyway, So my mind says " I am not loved anyway".

*Trigger*

On another note.
A friend of mine her husband killed himself about 15 years a go and they have a daughter together (the child was just 6 at the time) she was always told by her mother that her dad died of an illness, Later when she was about 15 she found out the truth and she now has many problems, Drug abuse, anger issues as her dad killed himself whilst she was sleeping and was babysitting her (now that is what I call selfish) what if she found him? Luckily it didn't happen because his wife returned home from work and found him hanging.