I do have pretty severe abandonment issues..I also don't fully trust men. I figure if my father could just walk away from me why would any other man stick around?

When I first met him I said I was 19, so it isn't really his fault. People also forget that in terms of sexual desirability women are at the peak of it to men when they're 15. Ancient and uncontrollable instinct.

The cutting thing may not be right, but he recognises it as a genuine coping mechanism, some people have a glass of wine after a long day, I cut. I also recognise it as such and I dont think it's a bad thing to do.

I dont know how to handle this. Honestly at the moment I'd rather just bury my head in the sand.