hi, gdep1. as stated here previously, none of us here are professional MDs or therapists. however, my guess is that you are at a loss of emotions because the girl that you are infatuated with has rejected you. did she say why? why was the "hook up" drunken? (frankly, mixing drugs of any kind - including alcohol - with sex is a bad idea.) it appears you are using marijuana and alcohol to mask your emotions about the rejection. speaking to a therapist can help. please make an appointment as soon as possible. and, for your own sake, please lay off the marijuana and alcohol for a while. those things are not medications and are probably contributing to your problem. i wish you all the best and a speedy recovery!