Well, the pdoc lowered the dose after all - to 6.25 mg. Now I'm wondering if it's a good idea at this point in time. He starts his new job tomorrow and he's really stressed. He says he "doesn't feel like a human being." He feels "subhuman." He says he feels the way he did before he had a really bad episode in which he took off for California in his car and ended up attempting suicide in a distant city 3 states away.

He didn't mention how bad he's feeling to his pdoc today. He could just be stressing over the job. I don't know. I've suggested he take the 7.5 mg dose tonight after all.

It seems like he doesn't want to talk to me about it, and he says he doesn't care about the dosage one way or the other. He's just exuding a lot of anxiety.