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Originally Posted by notablackbarbie
Dear T
I am on the way to the day clinic outpatient program again. I am late again. And wish i were more honest overall...
I hate the program. Hate it hate it HATE IT!! 
I hate that i am there and  HATE ME so much for having screwed up so much that i have to go to this program. I am a mess and a ****ing horrible waste! And hate that i am just polluting the peace with my presence! AAARRGGG!!! These words and emoticons/smileys are not enough...i hate me and am just really mad at me right now...
~notablackbarbie's name... |
Dear T
Thank you for being firm and caring with me today...especially considering how much and how hard i broke down throughout.
...im not quitting yet. I am here
i guess im ok right now
for now, i will continue to try...
..............g'nite
((((everyone else here)))