Been schizophrenia for almost 25 years,have just now gotten on meds to help.Only time i gave up is when I was on risperdal.Had very bad side effects on me.I just fight the fight God gave me,hoping by my fighting others wont have to suffer.I embraced the kids to try my best to see that they didn't grow up to suffer.I did well i believe.It helped me a lot to have the kids there,just trying to direct them into positive paths.I wont complain to God on the hand I was dealt,just hope there is a positive reason for it.