hey, onebluegirl - i hear you! frankly, i don't know of many people who are 100% sure of what they are doing. the only way to figure out life is to experience it. from experience comes knowledge. knowledge calms fears. the best thing you can do for yourself is get out of bed! it is okay to make mistakes because that is how you learn. if you learn from your mistakes then you will grow to be a wise person. you can do it! get out of bed, have a cup of coffee and something to eat and try some new things. keep trying until you find what you like and what you don't like. that experience will build a life. good luck to you!!