Dreamer....

i completly understand what you are going through. i felt the same way when i was in high school...my mom was sick and i had alot of pressure from parents. i did the pills too. i complely understand....but having a sister is a big responsibility. my sister, kimmy, has kept me alive so many times. the thought of not seeing her wedding or seeing her graduate from college.....makes me think that maybe it's not so bad.

i did the cutting too. that's a hard one to fight.i've been battling it for about 3 years now...and i sometimes still do it. it's a daily battle...u have to take it one day at a time....and sometimes u will slip....but u have to remind yourself of all the things that are beautiful in your world. like your sister, and your parents. they are there for you....believe it or not....

good luck....god bless.....if you need more help let me know....i'm you but in a differnt body it sounds like