My Support Forums - View Single Post - plz help me....I already Know the alters?

blossommayflower27 · Feb 23, 2012, 04:03 AM

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Originally Posted by shoez

I DONT think I have DID (I dont want to have did....)but......because I recall everything usually. I remember things...I dont forget everything (even thugh I am forgetfull)
But ...
I do a lot of out fo character things...every now and then and i noticed I switch a lot from a person completely obsessed with schoolwork...
to a little kid..
to a grown woman that wants to get married
to a little kid whos scared of everything
to an angry frustrated teenager...
to a completely religious nut..
to being an atheist.
to what I think is myself.

I think little kid me called my T yesterday, so upset and crying and worrying.....and she told me to come in tomorrow...and I wrote this big huge letter....and then today I woke up..and I feel detached to whoever called her yesterday...it doesnt feel like me...I feel totally competent and functional and not emotionally hurt at the moment...And I cant understand the letter...

Its like....I know they exist, I know they take over here and there, and I cant control it. I dont know if they are alters, I dont know if I have DID...but im afraid of showing my T that I dont feel like myself....I dont feel like the same person that called her...or the same person that went to her office. Im scared she wont believe me..
I know one of them helps me with my work...I know one of them called my T yesterday crying...
Is it possible to know your alters , know you have them somewhre...even if you cant control when they come out?
How do you go about telling your T this? How??? Will they lock me up? will she say im nuts? Will she think im lying?

(((*HUGS*))) to you
We(all of me)totally understand that feeling...thank goodness for the T that i do have at this moment...i really do not think that you are nuts or lying...this is a totally legitament feeling and you have every right to feel the way you do...and also...i understand completely about the switching and not being in control over who comes out and when they decide to come out...because its like mine have a mind of their own...which most of my parts do...i have a lot of teenage parts...and they are extremely willful...anywhoo...i am sorta like you in regards to that statement you made that you dont want to have DID...well i have a very hard time admitting to myself that one of my diagnoses is DID...and i am sometimes aware of who comes out...and who wants to come out and sometimes i choose not to let some of them come out...because some of mine are not nice...and thats putting it mildly...but i just want to let you know that We(all of me)understand this feeling and what all is going on...it is very scary we know...but...just believe in yourself...and things will hopefully get a little clearer...so more (((*HUGS*)))for you...and we hope that this finds you doing well...