I am not insisting on being hopeless. I *feel* hopeless. Feeling and actually being hopeless are two different things. When reaching out for help is my last ditch effort and it took a lot for me to admit I even need help, I feel completely dumped on. If the p-doc felt the way you described, she would have told me. Plus, doctors take risks every single time they write a prescription. The p-doc should be one place where you feel safe, feel as if there is open dialogue and honesty, and feel as if there is always hope. I think my main thing is that I left myself be vulnerable and tried to deal with my Bipolar with someone who is supposed to be a professional, and I left feeling as if there is no hope for me. NO ONE with mental illness should feel that way when they are seeking help.


Look, I am biased. I don't like doctors. Any doctors. But I don't see doctor giving up on you as reason to give up on yourself. They have few letters they wear in front of their name, but how long did she actually known you and what kind of person you are?

Maybe she gone through lawsuit with another patient. Maybe she is just person who does not take risks. Maybe she does really think you be better off on your own instead of being guinea pig. I don't know. But it is about her and her interpretation of you... not much about you being hopeless.

I guess I am bit overreactive lately, but it PISSES ME OFF when people give up on themselves based on label or what some person said about them (especially since there could be more explanations for that... as I said above).

You take care of yourself. Try to reach out elsewhere if you feel you need to, but take their advice with shovel of salt if it seems to contradict your feelings and values.