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Originally Posted by bluMyst
Recently, I've started to actually wish that I had a mental illness. I know that sounds strange, but it would actually solve a lot of problems that I have. I'd be hospitalized which means I won't have to worry about the college/job dilemma, and I'll be able to talk to a psychologist (or psychiatrist, I guess) who (presumably) actually cares about me and can help me with my problems.
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As my therapist use to say, "It's not like that." I identified with your post; I did the same thing (only I went to college as that was a no-brainer after 4 years of high school, just keep doing what I was doing) and it was when I was 20 and realized I had to go out into the world and have a "life", job/support self, etc. that I fell apart. So, I was in therapy from when I was 20 until when I was 55.
I recommend grabbing school (as the easiest at the moment :-) but also going to the school counseling center and seeing if you can talk to someone and figure out how to learn to engage instead of working so hard at disengaging. You can only disengage so far and it is much more freeing to be out of your head and into the wider world, more interesting stuff going on so you don't just have a choice between knifing yourself and drinking acid?