I am having such a tough time in my relationship with my boyfriend. I get SO mad, so easily, and it feels at the time like it's justified and then I just feel stupid later. It goes similar each time. I get mad about something, and leave as fast as possible while acting really cold, and then I feel stupid the whole drive home and anxiety about my relationship ending builds and builds until we talk it over. OR, I get mad, and we have an argument over it. And then I feel like crap. And I always get so insecure about my relationship afterward that I become DESPERATE to fix what I started. And my boyfriend has started to pull away when I get this way, which means I am home trying to get a hold of him to fix it and probably come across completely clingy, which obviously would make him pull away more. It's at the point where if I get mad and storm out, he doesn't respond to texts or answer calls for a while. Which makes me EVEN MORE insecure, and I have panic attacks constantly until we fix things.

I am so sick of myself. I am so tired of fits of rage that I have no control over. It's always over childish things(bad sex? not getting sex? actually, it's often about sex and feeling rejected or unwanted). We have been seeing each other for 7 months, and we met 12 years ago(only got back in touch over facebook a couple years back). I was his first love and he was crazy about me and it drives me insane how much I have killed that. I want to fix things. SO BAD. How do I fix this? How do I get control over my anger? I want so bad to suggest couples counseling but I feel like it's too soon and if we ALREADY need counseling then maybe we should just break up. I tried to end things a couple weeks ago and he talked me out of it and begged me to stay with him. I don't want to be a crazy girlfriend.

PLEASE HELP.