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Originally Posted by WePow
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I understand. Let this be whatever it is. You may have a wide range of emotions all at the same time. I felt very sad for my dad when they had the wreck last year and he was life flighted. And I felt guilt because I wished he would die. I felt sad because I wanted that to happen! And I loved my father because he is my dad. But I hated him because he was my abuser.
It is ok to feel everything you feel.
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Thank you, Wepow. You have summed up exactly how I feel right now. It now appears that my father will make it. I do feel let down that this is the case, and I feel guilty because I feel this way. Also, I am angry because I have plans for the weekend and I have to decide whether to cancel my plans so that I can go visit him. My husband and t recommend to stay away, I get so triggered when I visit. It takes me a couple of sessions just to get myself back in functioning order. Right now, I am so mentally preoccupied that my teaching is suffering.
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