My psychiatrist feels like he can't provide enough treatment I need. The reason she feels this way is because he sent me to a hospital for people who have suicidal thoughts, I was looking up ways to die.

He's the best doctor I've ever had but I ruined for myself by telling him I was having suicidal thoughts, if I just would kept quiet and keep these thoughts to myself I would still have her as my psychiatrist. Now I have to deal with what I've done I don't think I can forgive myself for causing this, I had everything going for me but stress got the best of me.

He doesn't know if he wants to continue with me or not, but I don't I want to continue working on my depression because I basically ruined my chances of getting better. If he decided not to work with me I'm done talking with anybody and I'll admit is going to really affect me in a very bad way.

I also predicted and told him he was going to find me annoying and have me stop seeing him he disagree but I was right. Is he giving up on me or am I too much to deal with?

I don't know what to do, waiting for answer is killing me inside. I really need advice…