Well four months is a start and I am glad you are doing that...but it is also not all that long. Sometimes there is a big lag time between starting and seeing results.

But I agree that those of us on this board take these things very seriously and we should and honestly, I am glad that others are replying but your original note had me a bit freaked....my own situation feels a bit dicey lately, so it kinda jammed my channels when I saw killing myself...and now you explain "with your actions" and frankly that seems like a distinction without a difference. I guess what I would like to say is please reach out and explain exactly where you are at with your T. Be explicit as possible. reach out to a helpline if needed. And keep posting here. But do not turn inward at this important time, even if turning inward seems like the best thing to do. You will find support here.....hang in there...things can turn around but sometimes it does take time. Blessings to you, MCL