Yup that one is a real powerful motivator isn't it. It was my first and only motivator for years and years.

They did all they could to abuse me and so on but as long as I am still here fighting I am the winner. they could call me all kinds of names and do all kinds of damage but they could not kill the will to survive.

We have all been to Hell and back but in my book we are all winners because we are here and our abusers are not. We have won as long as we remain alive.

The hard part is done - living through the experiences. Now we have the frosting on the cake - the rest of our lives. I for one am not going to allow my abusers to take that way from me by choosing what they wanted me to do - leave this earth at their hands. In this case their hands are the effects I am left with - the panic attacks, depression, nightmares and so on. They HAD my past and I am not going to give them my future.

The future is mine to do with what I choose and I choose not to GIVE it away.

"They don't call us survivors for nothing"