I'm not doing well right now. It's taking everything I have not to binge and purge or take laxatives. But just when I think I'm ok, I'm not. I give in every time. This war in my head is awfull. My therapist, my nutrionist and my doctor all want me in treatment. I don't want to go. I'm working so hard to wean myself off of the laxatives, with no progress what so ever. I'm not sleeping well at nite either. I need support and really no where to go. Seeing my therapist once a week, my nutrionist twice a month and my doctor once a month doesn't seem to be enough. All I think about is controlling my food 24/7. It won't stop. I'm just needing to talk with someone and vent with someone that knows what I'm going through. Having bulimia has become my worst nightmare.

Angel4024