You know, it's funny. Writing my previous post I was going to start with a preamble saying I probably had no business chiming in for not so much having them (but still having some questions/thoughts). Then started to list some incidents. And was surprised how many there were, on account of the list being far from exhaustive(!) Most have been in severe depressive states, which, even then, though not commonly so, can still fall in BP II (according to my reading, because yeah, that did worry me).

On the hypo end, I think anything delusion-like that I experience could probably safely fall under the grandiosity umbrella (even if at the edges sometimes, lol). There was only one that really raised Pdoc's eyebrow as possibly going beyond grandiosity into delusion. She said, "but you didn't believe it, did you?". "Hell, yeah I did!" If I told you what it was, you'd laugh your *** off. There was another biggie that I worried might have been delusion, but it was from my OCD -- an obsessive thought that got way out of control. It wasn't just in my mind. I acted on it in a big way. It was a completely irrational belief (actually, impossible). Probably could be said it reached "delusional intensity" though not in fact a genuine delusion.

Yikes, rabbit-trailing (new generic not working for ****). Long and short. I don't really consider myself to have psychosis in any problematic sense. (For example, my olfactory hallucination is annoying, but not problematic.) I have had some psychotic type experiences (various types of hallucinations). But since I'm moderately sure they could reasonably be attributed to factors besides the BP alone, I'm not going to count them. Very freaky and disturbing to be sure, but I don't want to count anything unless I have to, lol.