Fuzzy, do you know how much I relate to both feeling like my life is all my fault, and also falling through the cracks? Since I feel the same way that you do, could you maybe think of what you would tell me, and then apply it to yourself?

I would tell you that it's not your fault, but that's hard to believe sometimes. I'm having to look at the things that really are my fault right now, and I probably blow it out of proportion, especially in how bad I feel about it all. That's black and white thinking - concluding that I'm all bad. I wonder if you are doing some of that too.

Try to look at things that you can change and see what you can do. Remember nobody is perfect. Try to forgive yourself for being human like we all are. Forgiveness is letting go of the hope for a better past. We can't change the past, but we can work now to change the future.

As for falling through the cracks, when we were kids there wasn't all that much that we could do about it, and we were damaged because we did really need some help. But what can we do so that we don't fall through the cracks anymore now? You're stronger than you were than and you can make yourself heard. You can ask for help and you can receive it.

I don't know if this helps you or not - I'm just trying to share some of what I'm learning, and to let you know that I hear you and I understand.

Rap