It seems like trying to find another pdoc would be a good idea. It can be frustrating I'm sure to treat people who keep having reactions or who don't adhere to their meds. My pdoc is very supportive and works with me when something isn't right. I always take my meds as prescribed and clear changes with her so she takes me seriously when I start spiraling. I think sometimes we get so overwhelmed we fall into that fix me role when the relationship should be reciprocal. You each need to contribute something to help you be healthy.