I always get these morbid thoughts. Well, I've been getting them almost all my life. I just always like to think about dead people, graves, blood etc. Don't get it confused with anger because I'm not angry at anyone. I mean, sometimes I get angry, but my morbid thoughts are never angry like I'm mad and I wanna kill somebody. But I often feel good when I get thoughts about people dying and whatnot. I mean, I like to watch movies about murders or zombies coming out of the ground...that kind of stuff. When I'm swimming in a lake, I like to think of the water sucking somebody down and not letting them up. But I never feel revengeful or angry and I never think these thoughts about any specific person or group of people. So idk. It really doesn't bother me.

I was dx with Schizophrenia back in 2008, but like I said these thoughts came waaaay before that. Do you think it has anything to do with my illness or is it completely separate?