Thank you for your post myself. As a recovering "attempter", I found it very inspiring.

You said "sometimes that purpose and meaning and thing that matters comes in the most unlikely way..." Yes, I could not agree more.

There are days that are incredibly dark but I am grateful now to have my life. All that mattered once was to escape ... permanently. And I almost succeeded. Now I still escape, but only to the security of my bed or some other safe place until the darkness passes.

I am one of the lucky ones. And despite my illness, I am so grateful for that. And that seems to matter to me.

(((jammerlich)))